feeling good

Today after waiting at the cancer center for nearly 2 hours I was told that my white blood count (the immune system) was too low to administer the chemotherapy, arghhhh. I had a mini freak out "if I can't get the treatment today the tumors won't shrink, blah, blah, blah) I immediately started listening to my Qi Gong on my ipod and began feeling calmer, then I talked with Carla, my friend and acupuncturist, she assured me that this does happen and it will be okay. My doctor also was pretty calm about it, so things are good.

Mexico was WONDERFUL and I came back feeling very relaxed and nurtured. More than once (actually more times than I like to admit) Maryclare had to talk me down when my mind started to spin about these new tumors, so in reality about 50% I was a walking worry wort and the other 50% of the time I was able to enjoy the yoga, the beach, and the great group of women at the retreat.

The following Monday I had an appointment at UCSF with Dr. Jahan to check in and to discuss plan "B" if the gemzar doesn't work (I don't mean to sound cocky, but i think it's working) and he checked out my abdominal/rib swelling that I was convinced was cancer gone wild in my plural cavity (more like my mind gone wild thinking about my plural cavity). But alas, it's most likely a hernia. Dodged that bullet!

The art benefit on March 27th is in full swing and we now have so much art we will be hard pressed to find space to hang it all, which is a good thing. The variety is astounding! I am overwhelmed by the generosity of the artists.

That's all for now
Becca